Life's hardest question.

This morning we all went straight to makati for my li'l sisters yearly check up on her scoliosis. She was being her usual perky self and I was happy to see that. It was my first time to come with my parents and Leeyan to get her vertebral column checked and see how it is doing. I already saw the xray photo of her spine but that was years ago and I forgot how the bend on her back looks like. This morning I saw it again. Then it came to my senses that it wasn't really something to be taken lightly. That moment i felt how my parents would feel everytime they would go to the doctor. It was scary. mind boggling...It was a very tense situation. I found myself talking to God asking Him to give my sister strength and help her grow healthier and stronger. i felt really scared for her. I was really anxious about what the doctor would say this time. The doctor told her to lie down so he could check her reflexes. Fortunately, it was all normal. (Sometimes, the bend on the back affects the spinal cord.) Well, comparing it to last year, nothing changed. And somehow thats good news. I still want to thank God 'coz the situation didn't get worse. (But it didn't improve either, and in reality, there is a small chance that it will.) So it was a relief hearing that. "So, I'll be seeing you again next year", said Dr. Gomez and he gave Leeyan his big smile like last time.

But something bothered me... The doctor held up Leeyan's x-ray photos. She saw her spinal column like last year and pretty much like the years before that. Of course she didn't have the slightest clue what that bend on her back was. She seemed happy that time,,smiling and asked dad, "lahat ba ng tao ganyan?"

No one answered.

Heh. I didn't know how to answered that either. I just felt like hugging her.

Just proud of our li’l princess. Seeing her for the first time ice skating alone. It just shows how she is bravely she's growing.

This is a chain letter. don't open!

aloha!

No need to mind this blog, i just have to post this to get my site verified on my bloglog :P

G'day to all :D

Undergoing MyBlogLog Verification

Please send to 100 people or else you will have bad luck. yes, 'habambuhay'.

Stop and stare.

This is sad. i would not know how to handle a devastating situation like this if it were to happen to me. I personally wanna ask everyone to pray for those people who suffered from the massive earthquake in China. Especially those 25,000 missing persons. I'm really anxious about those students who were entrapped by the huge debris of buildings. May God help them endure that frightful state.

a kid was given medical aid while trapped in the rubble. I got teary eyed on this one.



a man passing by corpses from the earthquake



No offense but this photo is really dramatic, great shot. Really sad though as this guy was seen under the rubble. Fortunately he was a survivor.



I can't help it. I imagine myself with her situation....Dear Lord......

Double up.

Ako ay kasalukuyang pagod.

Its the day i decided to make my muscles more conspicuous by making them look bulky. Basically, I'm trying to buff up. I started out with the schedule I used to follow last year - biceps chest and shoulders on Mondays/ traps and back on Wednesdays/ Legs and abs on Fridays. I usually start working out every summer and last for about 3 months and when i attain that weight i want, I tend to slack off and eventually stop from exercising. Then gradually i lose weight then start all over again. Its an annual cycle :D Exercising is not really my thing. Unfortunate for me I'm naturally skinny and I have to maintain this huge amount of diet and a debilitating workout schedule on a daily basis just to remain bigger. And of all the sports I literally got addicted to, it had to be badminton - one of the best sports to decrease weight.

Actually, i usually decide to gain mass whenever my friends start to notice how skinny I'm getting. Sometimes i don't know what I should do to myself, People would say i should gain some weight na, and when I do, they'd be like, "hey cut the calories, your fat" and they say it like its a bad thing. haaay naku, pleasing people could often make you go crazy. No wonder they also keep saying be 'true to yourself'.

Anyhoo, I personally think its better for me to start the 'buff program'. Well, I'm really not looking foreward to "buffing" up, I'm not really aiming for Mr. Universe, i just like to keep it lean and toned.

If you havn't noticed, they literally look like shit walking around in bikinis. To illustrate it more further, think about your own shit. Now imagine it with bikini briefs. Ring any bell? Told you.

So now, the worst food im eating is a can of tuna every night, a glass of milk (i abhor milk), and an egg every morning (fyi, an egg a day is healthy and safe.)

Hopefully I'd be able to tone up a bit in about a month. will be posting pictures. *LOLz*

NOT.

Why Jerry, why?

Just showing the love and support for the best web based search engine, YahooOo!

You have probably heard about the news that Microsoft withdrew from its bid to buy the internet giant Yahoo! apparently due to disagreement from price per share. It could've been a historical move for the two companies. Merging would sound intimidating especially for Google, the internet behemoth they're trying to overcome (now you know why they had the idea to merge). Alot of critics believe Jerry Yang just wanted to prove that his company was far valuable than a mere $47.5 billion. I was really expecting that the 2 companies would compromise, i was a fan of the idea. But for what ever reason Jerry Yang has, I'm sure he was just being rational and considered other factors that might do harm to his pioneering company. Eventually, we'll see what that decision would do for Yahoo.

If you wanna see Steve Ballmer's personal letter to Jerry, click here.

a 'could have been'.

this is hopeless. but im inlove with it.

Why is it that i can't give up this blog site whereas it doesn't have much readers.

I think that is the whole point of it. I enjoy blogging when I don't have that much readers to dedicate this blog to. I can post what ever I want and when ever I want. I take blogging as a way of venting out mind vomits or convey heart felt thoughts. Its pretty hard to maintain a blog when you know you have a regular reader wherein you have to regularly post something for him. I'm not a dedicated blogger anyway, I guess i won't be able to change THE world with blog entries. I'm not that ambitious.

So yeah, i took some time off to change the theme of this blog. The last one just doesn't feel right for me, it has spanish words which i never understood so whats the whole point of using that.
I always thought that themes should fit your personality and i think this perfectly fits mine. I think orange is the best motif for me 'coz it conveys perkiness but not to the extent of too feminine i guess. The rainbow is showing a happy impression on my page...and that tree is...black... ok, f*ck it. so i guess this whole theme IS gay. The hell i care. I like it.